Have you ever lost faith with an author? There were two such authors for me. Growing up they truly inspired me. I read their books over and over.
One of them, I found as an adult that she had released a new book within the last decade. I was so excited to read it. Hands trembling with anticipation I began reading. The opening was promising enough, it had her voice and style but as I went on it read more and more like a first draft of a novice writer. Nothing had been edited out. It rambled back and forth with no clear coherency. The dialogue was more people talking after each other than to each other, not to mention that sometimes a single speaker would go on for a page and a half without breaking quotes or having any kind of beats. The ending was so poorly written I laughed out loud. And felt so guilty for doing so. I don't know if the author was getting old and tired, or trading in on her fame by assuming people would buy her stuff no matter what but it was a huge disappointment.
The other author is different. I'm well read enough now to believe she did more than just be influenced or inspired by other people's writing, if you know what I mean. And I just can't feel the same about her. When I went back and tried to reread her work it felt tainted.
Loosing faith with those authors is like killing my childhood. While I have yet to be published I worry that I may let future readers down. You can never please everyone but I would hate to leave people feeling cheated or tainted. I guess we just have to keep writing the best and truest stories we know how and hope that people can see what we see in them.